Nikita Thakrar is a published poet of her own book; "My Journey through Poetry" launched on her 27th Birthday, in 2012.

Nikita is currently working on Volume II of the book, which will be launched in time for her 30th Birthday in 2015.

The book of 27 poems featured a collection both old and new works, she had been writing since her childhood. Since the book launch, Nikita has gone onto develop her writing of short stories and is working on her own auto biography.

Each month Nikita will update a new poem on this page, with a description of her source of inspiration for that month.

Nikita; "I wrote this poem in my early teens, during a lunch break at school. Years later I found this poem, written on a scrap piece of paper and i could barely make out the words. I just about managed to read what the words said and took the time to re-form it. It explores the theme of a teenage break up. When you grow so attached to someone and you realise they do not and did not feel the same. The self questioning, blame and most of all distrust shapes how you then go on to trust the opposite sex..."

I am trying to make it easier,
Easier for my heart,
Easier to analyse,
How my dreams get torn apart.

Perhaps I shouldn’t dream,
Maybe it wasn’t real,
Perhaps it was meant to work out like this,
Is this an imbalance of the wheel?

What I just don’t understand,
Or what I can’t digest,
Is why it seems to only happen to me,
Why not to all the rest?

All I wanted was to be loved,
A strong desire to belong,
I’ve been looking all my life,
But it always turns out wrong.

Is it because I am cursed,
Or do I just not deserve love,
Will my luck ever be reversed,
Or will it always be this tough?

I am looking for answers,
I am looking deep inside,
If you know what I am going through,
Then can I confide?

My heart feels like a toy,
Played with and used,
My mind is asking questions,
My body feels abused.